Posts Tagged ‘Work’

I am desperately looking for a new job. The reasons for leaving where I am now are plentiful, most of which I won’t share at this time, but I have been there seven years and it really is time to move on!

Just before Christmas I spotted a job, it was only a couple of days until the closing date, so I didn’t really think about it, I just applied! After a couple of weeks I hadn’t heard anything, so I took it as a ‘no’!

Two days before Christmas I got an email ‘you have been shortlisted, interview will be in the new year’. Wow, I had made it through the application stage!

Christmas and New Year came and went and an interview confirmation arrived. I went back over the job description and tried to prepare. But (and it is a fairly big but) as I was reading things I started to question whether I wanted the job. Yes, it would be a new job in a new place, but it would be more work, less money and less flexibility!

I thought about it – a lot – I kept saying ‘go for the interview, it’s great experience, then decide’! But I didn’t feel sure about it, how would I feel if they actually offered me it and I had to turn it down, could I ever even really consider taking that drop in money when we live ‘hand to mouth’ as it is. So I rang them, said thank you but I wouldn’t be going.

I felt better, so much better, no pressure of an interview, no having to turn down a job if offered it. I was comfortable with what I had decided!

Another job has come up, one I would LOVE, it is completely different to what I do now, but I am nervous, tonight even too nervous to complete the application. It will be further away from where I live, I won’t know anyone, it will be stricter hours, it will be brand new! What should I do?

It has been said maybe I am ‘too Comfortable’ at my job now, I have been there so long that I can’t see myself leaving my bubble, I am too scared to do it!

Tonight I have realised that I am too comfortable, I have been in the same place of work for 7 years, I have changed roles within the organisation but I am one of the longest serving members of a small team, I have my breakfast at work, I am asked were stuff is, I have some flexibility in my hours, I know the people, in fact I have some very good friends there, I am scared about moving and ending up in a job that does less for my life, for my family!

What should I do? Apply for the brand new job, risk the rejection, risk it not being right, risk moving out of my comfort zone? Or do I stay where I am?

What would you do?


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A while ago I had a guest post from Angeline about being a working mum!

Well I thought maybe it was time to share my story,

Growing up I had always had plans to be a mum, now there was brief moments as a teenager and at uni of thinking maybe not, but deep down I always knew that a Mummy I would be! By the time I met hubby I had a plan in my head – I would meet my perfect guy, get married, buy a house and have my dream job; then I would have my children and would be a Stay at home mum!

Well, even the most thought out plans don’t always work out do they?

Flash back to March 31st 2007 – my wedding day, an awesome day where me and the blokey became Man and Wife! I loved it, not just the day or the cake made out of rounds of Cheese or the flowers made of fruit, but the fact I had a husband!

Something changed that day for me and the other half! We became one, I don’t mean like one person, but one unit, one family. We started on joint life plans for the future, you know the spend a couple of years together being a couple, buy a house, work and then we would extend our family type plans!

Well July 2007 (yes only four months later) I found out I was pregnant!  So with a husband, a job that wasn’t my dream job and a rented house we very happily embarked on a new plan!

So fast forward to March 2008 – Legs, my awesome little man, was born, we became a family of three and were loving it. I was lucky to be able to take a year off work on Maternity to watch Legs develop and I was happy, so the new plan was to take that year off and then either go back to work at the most part time or stay at home!

When Legs was 9 months old, something unexpected happened (a story for another day), but it meant that in April 2009 I was going to have to return to work full time and hubby was going to do the childcare! Gutted as we were, we had no choice and back to work I went!

Guess what happened in July 2009 – yep, I found out I was pregnant again.

So March (yes I know everything happens in March) 2010, the beautiful Mouse was born. Another year off, more difficult this time, finances were tough and we nearly didn’t get through a whole year, but the plan always remained the same – Hubby would find work and I would stay at home!

But (yep that but again) the depression hit the UK, my hubby couldn’t find a job as his skills weren’t right for some jobs, he didn’t have enough experience for others, he was even too educated for some! So I trundled back to work April 2011, full time away from my lovely family!

So how is it being a working mum? Well some days it is tough, some days it’s awful and some it is ok! There are good points, I enjoy having adults to talk to, I have friends at work,  I like helping people through my work and I like to know I have worked hard.

But, for me the downsides are massive, I miss my children everyday, I miss being there when they are at the park with Daddy, when they are sick and need a hug or when they achieve something new. It hurts when they ask why I go to work and why I won’t be going swimming with them.  I am proud that Legs and Mouse can tell me I do it to get some pennies and without pennies we can’t buy food, go swimming or several other things, but I know they also miss me!

So, it wasn’t always the plan and I do it because I have to, it’s not easy, it’s not always fair, but I will keep doing it whilst I need to! But I also do it knowing that if I can ever be a work/stay at home mum – I will grab that with both hands!!

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What is the best way to sell yourself, I don’t mean actually selling for money. I mean the verbal, talk yourself up, tell them how good you are without be cocky type!

How much is too much confidence, if you say how good you are at something does that mean you are too sure of yourself? If you don’t speak up enough then they won’t realise what you can do! Okay I am not making much sense, but how do you sell yourself? Any tips?

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So here goes……I am getting ready to leave the house for work for the first time in over a year! How do I feel? I am still angry, nervous and emotional!

But I am trying to be strong, I don’t want to go, but it is not a choice thing, I have to do it – needs must! So with head held high (well kinda high), I will walk through that door and be brave! I will probably have butterflies in my belly and a tear in my eye, but I will be strong (on the outside at least), until I get home to the cuddles of OH, Legs and Mouse!

See you all later!


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Today I am mostly…..

I am feeling rather strange today, very up and down and quite emotional! We are now in the middle of March and I feel the next couple of weeks are going to be hard ones!

Next week we are celebrating two birthdays in the house, Legs will turn three on Wednesday and Mouse 1 on Saturday, so no longer will I be the mummy to a baby – but to two toddlers! Time has gone so quickly!

Don’t get me wrong, it is wonderful to watch them develop into little people, their personalities are amazing and watching them playing shops together this morning, where Mouse had no idea what was going on and was more interested in High Fiving and watching Big Cook, Little Cook over her brother’s shoulder was adorable!

But like any mum I have a pang of ‘my babies are growing up’!

On the 31st of March I will also celebrate my 4th wedding anniversary with my fabby husband, obviously a happy event but this will be shadowed by sadness as just a few days later I am returning to full time work.  I have had a year’s of Maternity Leave, but unfortunately circumstances mean this is having to come to an end and I will be joining the ‘real world’ of workers again!

I am feeling very emotional about this, I am lucky in one sense, I am not having to put them in childcare as Hubby will become a full time stay at home dad, but I feel I am handing over the reins of bringing them up! I won’t be the one the nursery speaks to about Legs, won’t be taking Mouse for her 13 month jabs and I won’t be able to comfort them when they wake from a nap unhappy!

So that’s me today, happy, sad, confused, proud and emotional!

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